Failing

Growing up I didn’t have any idea of what I wanted to become. Life for me was something that I had to go through everyday ever since middle school. But strangely, coming into college, I aspired to become someone that will make a lot of money and support my mom and also make my whole family proud of me. But living in this debt-owing country, I am seeing that my dreams to make a lot of money is just a wishful dream. With this mentality, I’m seeing/believing myself turning into a failure and feeling sorry for my mom that I’m her failing son.

I told this to my mom once… she stopped her Korean drama, faced me with a serious face, and said, “I do not want you to give up because you’re failing. You must understand that there is a difference between ‘failing,’ which is something happens to everyone every day, and ‘being a failure,’ which is something that people think that no one should ever believe.”

Do you guys see yourself as “being a failure” and blaming it on others or being someone who takes a “failing” as a stepping stone to improve yourself?

My favorite quote is “don’t worry~ be happy~”; which I got from some commercial when I was young. Unfortunately, this quote is half flawed. “don’t worry~” is something that I do not agree upon. You should have some worries so that you take life seriously and better yourself through trial and errors of life, but I believe everyone should have a happy outlook on himself or herself and the failings to change oneself with a positive attitude.

Just know that with God, your true self, a spiritual being, is always perfect. ;)