PCAT preparation

Today is August 11, 2010, 9:34PM, and I’m at my cousin Matt’s house typing this blog. I’ve been studying for PCATs for awhile now, and I’m feeling more and more unprepared as my exam date comes closer. I’m taking the exam somewhere in Temple University in August 20, 2010. I’m feeling somewhat confident with the Biology, English, and math section; however, I’m feeling scared of the Chemistry and Writing section. So currently, I’m taking an English course at Montgomery Community College to get some prerequisites for Pharmacy school. I’m learning all the basics of English writing. My professor is very anal about having a perfect paper. He takes huge points for any small mistakes, and he takes a letter grade from a fragment, comma splice, and not following his template. I’m doing okay, but the final is what will determine if I get a B or C. I only have 9 days to study hard for my PCATs and prepare for my English in-class final. I need to practice writing!!!

Don't worry~ be happy....

My life's moto was "Don't worry, Be Happy" This is something that my mom would say all the time. I believe she got this saying from an old Korean TV show. But going through this year, knowing that lot of challenges will transpire, I can't help but to think only about my worries. First of my worries was this stupid oral exam that I needed to pass to graduate. The oral exam was on quantum mechanics and believe me I had NO IDEA what was going to be asked in this exam. But luckily with one month of studying, I came to understand the basic idea of the world of chemistry. So I'm glad that studying for this oral exam taught me about quantum mechanics.

Now my last worry for this year is getting into pharmacy school. Because my whole family wanted me to go into this field pretty recently, I have to take few prereqs at a community college and Temple university. I'm also studying for the PCATs which I really hope that I get a perfect score... b/c i'll need a perfect score.
I really want to make my mom happy. I really want her to feel that her son isn't this big failure. Pharm schools do not look at any of the classes that were taken more than 5 years ago. I graduated from Drexel University in a 5 year program... So i'll be applying to a pharm school with classes that are 6 years old. Again I'm worried that I won't be able to get into a pharm school. I'm literally relying on God's hands that I believe does miracles. These are some of the things that are worrying me... I want to live every moment not to regret what I'm doing with my life. For the selected amount of people that are reading my blog... PLEASE pray for me so that I may be happy as well.

Thank you

Daily Affirmation

Every morning when we look at ourselves, we either say things like, "I need to be more tanned" or "I need to hide this pimple the best way possible." BUT instead with this negative and condescending remarks, we should start our mornings with something more like this:



With this kind of start, we would already be Kings/Queens of this world. :)

A song I will sing to a girl I like :p

세븐(SE7EN) - 꽃을 들고서 (Holding the flower)

(Korean lyrics)

하늘빛 나는 너를 꿈꾸지 눈뜨면 사라져 없지만
매일 그 곳에 매일 그 시간 내 입술에 닿던 그 느낌
오늘도 너와 마주칠거야 너의 가는 길을 아니까
이제 그만 꿈만 꾸는 상상은 멈추고

꽃을 들고서 활짝 웃으며 눈이라도 하얗게 바라며
어색하지만 고민되지만
더 이상 너를 혼자 둘수가 없어
말해야겠어 나 어떠냐고 널 많이 좋아해 왔다고
I can't stand no more.. you know my love..
내 사랑을 전해줄꺼야..

(간주중 )

역시나 오늘도 놓쳐 버렸지 아쉬운 너의 그 뒷모습
매일 그리던 내 코에 와 닿는 니 향기
가슴이 뛰는 이 소리 들리니
왜 나는 왜 말하지 못해
아름다운 니 눈속에 날 담아보고 싶어..

꽃을 들고서 활짝 웃으며 눈이라도 하얗게 바라며
어색하지만 고백해볼께 언젠간 너에게 말하고 싶어
말해야겠어 나 어떠냐고 널 많이 좋아해 왔다고
I can't stand no more.. you know my love..
내 사랑을 전해줄꺼야..

오늘도 먼저 앞서간 저 앞에 너에 모습
안타까운 마음에 널 불러 you~
널 사랑해

나의 마음이 너의 마음에
아름답게 스미길 바라며 기도할꺼야
(고백을할꺼야) 고백할꺼야
더 이상 날 혼자 둘수는 없어
말해야겠어 나 어떠냐고 널 많이 좋아해 왔다고
I can't stand no more.. you know my love..
내 사랑을 전해줄꺼야

(English Translation)

(Verse 1)
Like the light from the sky, I dream about you
And when I open my eyes you aren’t there
Every time at that place, at that time
That feeling inside my mouth
I’ll meet you again today because I know the path you go [home]
I want to stop dreaming now
I want to stop imagining now

(Chorus)
I’m going to hold the flower and smile brightly and the snow will be blowing about our faces
Its going to be awkward, its going to be hard
But I can’t turn back alone any longer
I have to tell you, ask you what you think of me
Tell you that I liked you since before
I can’t stand more you know my love
I’m going to tell you about my love

(Verse 2)
Again I lost my chance today
It’s too bad seeing your back turned
Your fragrance that reaches my nose, and I grieve for that
Do you hear the sound my beating heart?
Why, why can’t I tell you?
I want to see myself in your beautiful eyes

*(Chorus)*

(Bridge)
Today you are in front of me again
My heart is heavy as I call you
I love you

(Ending Chorus)
My heart in your heart
I’m going to pray that it’ll go on smoothly
I’m going to confess to you, I have to tell you
Ask you what you think of me
Tell you that I liked you since before
I cant stand no more you know my love
I’m going to tell you about my love.

Stressed and hopefully my future plans

I’m so stressed right now. So I didn’t do so well in my final for Physical Chemistry 3. It wasn’t just me either. Almost the whole class did badly, so the professor (Stenner) gave us an oral exam. But I don’t know how to prepare for an oral exam for quantum mechanics. Plus I was trying to register for classes in Montco but the lady working there was giving me so much trouble. So that was another reason why I stressed. I’m also afraid that I won’t make it to pharmacy school because of my grades. They definitely improved however this class by Stenner will definitely bring me down if I don’t do well in his oral exam. So my plan currently that I’m striving is:
• Study my butt of for the Physical Chemistry 3 oral exam.
• Register for classes in Montco and/or Temple University.
• Prepare for PCATs
• Work at a pharmacy to get experience and hopefully some money.
• GET INTO A PHARM SCHOOL!!!!
• Then get good grades in the Pharm School.
Pray for me!! Lot of things is going in my mind. Elias told me to tackle these problems one by one. The whole time I was thinking about the whole situation and just stressing myself, but I know God will definitely direct me to a place where I will make my mom, dad, sister, and my how cousins feel proud of me.

Mice / Girl Dream

Today I had this funny dream. It looked like I was in a dorm room. I had this pet mouse or a rat that was white. I remember having a job where I had to get up and work at 7 am. I remember having a lot of great co-workers. I became friends with a co-worker that was Asian, maybe Korean, and she was friendly and short. I remember lot of people including me had issues about the job. But the boss was nice and he was a dude. I also had a girl that I liked and apparently she liked me but she said we can only go out when the term or when we graduated. She was tall, had a pale skinny face. She also had great skin. I remember I was in the room with her. We were talking on a cushioned chair. She lied down on my lap and we just talked about random stuff such as going out. We were facing outside the window. It was dark outside. I believe it was just us inside or there could have been one more other person behind us. I remember see few GCC people in my dream too. I remember seeing Matt Pan and yue xu in my dream. I shared this with my mom. I only shared that I had a girl-friend and that I had a pet rat that was white. She told me that I will have a girl friend that is a rat in the Chinese zodiac. Which means she has to be 2 years older than me OR 10 years younger…….

My last term as an undergraduate!!!

So it’s my last term as an undergraduate at Drexel University… It feels very weird.. This feeling I have right now reminds me of the various mission trips good-byes. I hated leaving the kids in Tennessee and Guatemala and I will miss life as an undergraduate. I just took my last Korean final. I only get to see the final examiner once a term because she’s the only one that does the oral final. Every time I walk in the final exam room I’m always nervous and I hated being in there, but today was different. After my exam, I felt lonely and I didn’t want to leave that room. I was in there after the exam was over and I just stared at the walls of the room. The map of Asia. The map that had “sea of Japan” written on it. That is completely wrong, by the way, so I had changed it to “East Sea.” That room was the place where I took Japanese 101 and 102. That room was the place where I’ve taken Korean 5 & 7. In the awkward silence after the exam, I said my final good-byes to that Korean examiner, Mrs. Kim. I thanked her for being the final examiner and bowed to her by the door and I slowly walked away. Walking by the places where I always passed by to go to class. The coffee maker where I would steal the coffee things and then instead of paying 0.75 cent, I would bring my own filter and brew free coffee’s for me. I will really miss this place. As week 10 has officially ended, I look back at all the week 10’s I have gone through in my 5 years in Drexel University…they all seem the same, but today as I end my last “week 10”… it seems so much different.

A decant of thoughts

During the winter break, I have been doing nothing but studying materials for the GRE’s. As I’m taking practice exams, more and more the grades seems to be getting better, but there are times when my grades do not show any improvement.
I have registered for a GRE exam January 7, 2010, a Thursday and also the first week of my last winter term in Drexel. As the exam day comes closer, it’s becoming clearer what a mistake it was to register and also be studying for GREs. I should’ve studied PCATs. So I’m thinking about canceling the GRE exam Thursday and start studying for the PCATs in which I’ll probably take them later in this year. The deadline for pharmacy school is coming close and I don’t think I have the time to understand the materials for the PCAT. I might start work that is pharmacy related during my spring break and keep doing it during the summer and then start applying for pharmacy schools.
ANYWAYS~
So I just needed to write this stuff down because it’s something that just came across my mind. These are totally random things that have been in my mind and possibly “it” might change the world.
So the things on my mind:
1) So I think that the reason why the world is facing a recession is now is due to the war in Iraq. It’s only a speculation. People are saying that former president Bush screwed us up and I just think the downfall of our economy started once people were being sent to war. I might be wrong that our economy started going downhill at the start of the war. BUT I think once the soldiers come back to their respective homes, a positive change in our economy will occur.
2) I thought of an invention working at the carwash during Christmas-eve. It has to do with tires… That’s all I’m going to say.